Wigfield Psychiatric Ward

So we all have blips in our relationships.

Some of them are minor inconveniences.

Some of them involve crying and fear, a loss of sleep, and paranoia.

Guess which kind I'm having.

So, naturally, my first free day with NO obligations is a Tuesday. A Tuesday. A Maintenance Tuesday when all the servers are down for an extended period of time. Figures. If I worked it our in EST... I think we'll be up around 5 o'clock? But I dunno, I've come home on Tuesdays and been able to play. But it did say "extended" so who knows.

I've had a pretty good past couple lengths of time.
So our (Senior's) last day was Friday. Lots of sad faces from the younger students who will totally miss us, we watched Senior video, shortened classes in which nothing useful was accomplished, yearbook signing at the end.

I was standing around and apparently looked too mopey because I didn't have a yearbook, and Dan thrust $45 at me and told me to go one. He made me go get one. I was really touched, he's such a sweetie. He'll deny it, of course, but he is.

And a good time was had. Jamie and Ben stopped by at his Grandparent's place to shoot for a bit. Dan and I watched the first National Treasure (cause I had only seen the second one). Then we got a call from Mark and went over to play at his house for a bit, and we watched Shaun of the Dead.
Which its surprising I am not TOTALLY sick of that movie, what with how many times I watched it for research on two different papers.

then after that I took Dan back home and then I went home. I like it, but it also depresses my immensely to sleep at his house. Couldn't he just come sleep out on the couch with me? On the floor next to the couch?

Had marching stuff yesterday. Stopped by McKeon's for free food, then I grabbed Dan and took him to my brother's where we were doing a family picnic as a test run for my graduation party that you will all be required to attend :)

I told Dan something about how I'd seen Anthony and mentioned something about him joining the military, and Dan made some comment along the lines of "I guess you're again that too?" or something to that effect, and I pretended to play dumb and he let it go.
I don't think he GETS what my deal is. I am not opposed to the military or people joining it. I've opposed for him frickin' LEAVING me for three years.

Who knows where we'll be at that point. And I don't even know exactly when it will be. But while he's off distracted by all the new shiny things he's doing and learning in the military and meeting new people and going to new places, I'll be sitting here. Working every day. Doing the same thing. Alone.

So you can see why I'm upset.
It's not that I don't want him to go do this stuff; I know its what he wants, and I won't stop him. It'd be wrong of me. But I won't know what to do with myself. But its aways off yet, and I shouldn't get too worked up.

I gotta an app for Hot Topic to fill out. Thats about it. I go to work at 3:30 today. WoW won't be back up until after all my free time is gone :( OH well.

And stuff.

Riight. So Prom! uber funsies. :)

Sat around Saturday morning. Played World of Warcraft for most of it. I have a slew of characters I bounce around between- rest XP is amazing BTW. At about 11:50 I left to go get my hair done downtown.

Small towns are great. Mom gave me $20 to get my hair done, but she wasn't sure how much it would cost. so she told me that if it was more than that, just to tell Judy (the woman doing my hair, Mom has known her forever) that she would just swing by and pay the rest later. Sure enough it came out to $30 and I was like "Yeah... Mom said she'd come by and pay later." "Sure! Have a nice day!" XD Only in a small town. Its great.

It looked a little funny... but I think mostly okay. Had a shitton of hairpins in it o_O And then I went home and sat around and played more WoW and talked to Dan.

So around 4ish Dan and I logged off and started getting ready. Threw on mah dress, worked on makeup... I only did like, foundation though to make my face a bit clearer. Joey says I look funny in makeup, so I took his advice and kept it to a minimum. Put on shoes... stuff... I dunno... and then Mom insisted on taking pictures.

Finally I made it out of there and headed to Dan's. Once there I was in the car for a little bit throwing my stuff in my bag and grabbing my camera and whatnot. In that couple minutes Dan must have spotted me and was waiting, because as I waas headinh up the steps he opened the door... and he looked great. Very nice in his black tux, holding a rose. Glee just spread on my face a little bit down my leg. KIDDING! XD I wanted to make a joke there.

And then his parents followed out and took pictures on their camera and mine. Only one of them turned out fairly well. The rest we were squinty or blinking or I was making fun of Dan and he had a funny look on his face XD

We were outta there in good time and headed towards Olive Garden! Yeah! All right! We had a short wait of about 10-15 minutes. We snagged one of the nice leather loveseats as soon as we got in, cause people were just getting up. Not long after we got there Joey and Dana came in. Funsies. We were seated in a timely fashion. I loved our waitress. Her name was Amy, I believe, and she was nice. Comented on it being prom, and was just generally very good with her service. She did forget to bring Dan his soup (and accidently brought a salad bowl instead) but she quickly fixed it. Plus she brought me another refill before I was even done and without asking. XD I hate the dregs of soda glasses/cans, so I thought that was totally amazing.

Joey and Dana sat on the other side of the little divider wall thingie. I peeked through a little "window" thing (not sure what you call them...) and occasionally threw stuff at him and said weird things XD Dana giggled.

Dan was quite charming. Such a sweetie. We had pleasant conversation over dinner. I got my favorite picture of the night at dinner. She kept eating and I kept trying to take a picture, and I told him to not eat or move! So he posed with the fork halfway in his mouth, but he's got the cutest half-smile on his face. Its my favorite <3
That and the picture that Jessica took later at prom was really pretty looking.

We got out of there with about an hour to spare. So we headed out and tried to track down the Opera House. I knew it was on East Front Sreet, but people FAILED TO TELL ME that EFS is just the main street downtown. That would have made life easier if someone said that! Well we did about 2-3 passes at the block and finally saw it. We still had lots of time, so I parked and we sat in the car and chatted for a little while before finally making our way there.

We stood around and chilled and waited for them to officially open. I can say Dan and I were officially the first ones to check in and go into the room! Yay!
Sat around. Tried to eat some of the great chocolate covered food, but I was SO stuffed. Dan paid for diner BTW :) He's such a sweetie.

We sat around for a little bit and gradually more friend peeps showed up. They played some good music in the beginning (Black Betty, Fat-Bottomed girls) but it went kind of downhill when they got into the stuff that all sounded the same. But at least some of it was deec. I Love Rock and Roll was a good hit. Everyone sang. Whoo!
:DDD And I got Dan to dance! That was seriously lke the best part for me. I don't think he even really gets that. The only time anyone has ever REALLY danced with me before was at prom last year, and even then Matt was kinda tired or sickish and didn't do a whole lot. So was sooo happy Dan danced. Sadie Hawkins he really didn't at all. He kinda chilled there XD But this time he did the typical man-swaying ish dancing, and that was all I wanted. *happyhappyhappy!*

We got out of prom a little early because Dan was tired, the poor thing. XD It was passed his bedtime! Plus I probably wore him out with my excessive enthusiasm.

Took him back to his place and we went to bed around 2-3ish. ._. although I really didn't want to go back there. his parents make me sleep out on the couch. We can't even sleep in the same ROOM together, which is ridiculous and heart-breaking, especially after such an amazing night.

Although I eventually got over it after some tossing and turning, and getting distracted by Raccoons.
I heard some noises coming from outside, so I peeked out the window and saw a big dark shape moving around and poking at a garbage can lid. A minute or two later there was another one, and they made these funny chirping noises. I figured they were Raccoons, which its pretty impossible to think they were anything else with the way thy sounded, looked, and acted.

So I fell asleep shortly after I was done watching the coons. I woke up again sometime in th morning and found the kitten! Dan's Mom just got a new kitten about a week or two ago. I snuggled with him for a bit before he hopped away. Shrotly after he came back and nestled in the crook of my legs, and I fell back asleep.

I woke up again a little while after that when his Mom and Dad were up, and Dan was just getting up. As he disappeared into the bathroom, I darted into his room and snagged him computer.
Then I just hung around there for a little bit before going home.

He is amazing. He spent all his birthday money on getting a tux to wear for prom. he got a little bit of money from his grandparents for working on the archery range and he spent a portion of that on dinner. He got out on the dancefloor with me, and he hates dancing.

Why?

Because he told me quite a few times "This night is for you." He just wanted to make sure I had the best night possible.... and it was a really great night. He went all out. And almost all day we were out at dinner, or driving around in the car, he couldn't take his eyes off me. He said himself he just couldn't not look at me. Even when I was dancing and he was off talking to Mark I would look over and I could see him steal a glance at me occasionally.

I don't think I've ever felt that way before, the way I feel when I'm with him. I've come a long way... and I'm liking where I am.

So was prom fun?

Hell yes.

(posted ata different time than typed)
So I'm sitting here in second hour in the library, because everyone is working on an assignment that I finished yesterday.

so last week was play. It all went very well. Except of course...

the one time I EVER decide to skip ANYTHING, it turns out to be a disaster. It was a pleasant day and I got a bunch of levels on World of Warcraft, cleaned my room, had time to take a shower.

I had just officially decided I wasn't going to school that morning. I had nothing important due, I am passing all of my classes just fine. Well I got a call from Dan and I as I picked up, he wasn't on the line anymore. I let it go, figuring if he really wanted to talk to me, he would probably just call me back.

I got a text from Joey maybe around second or third hour asking where I was, and I sent him one back telling him I was taking a day off today. We texted back and forth a few times, and then it was quiet.

I left Dan a message on Yshoo for himt o read when he got home. when he got home, he was pissed. Pissed. He was angry I hadn't called him or texted him and told him I wasn't going to be at school. I recall "you could at least send me a fucking text message" being said somewhere in there.

Why didn't I? Well I didn't even decide until THAT morning. I didn't call Joey and go out of my way to tell him I wasn't going to be there. The only reason I told him was because I got a text from him, and he has a text messaging plan.
Dan does not have a text messaging plan, therefore I did not text him. he got in trouble one day when we traded a bunch back and forth.

I wasn't even going to tell Joey had he not attempted to contact me.

Dan was still pissed. And it was the swearing that got to me, cause he doesn't swear excessively. But he wears moreso when he's angry. So I was really freaked out and upset and scolded.
I think he might have been jealous a little bit, too, because I told Joey and not him. But like I said, I didn't go out of my way to tell Joey or anything. Its not like I WOULDN'T have told Dan.

And then of course, as all this is happening, I get a call saying I might not able to do play tonight because Iw asn't at school. where the hell did that rule come from, and what sense does it make? Apparently Mrs. O made some comment about it when she marked me absernt in class. Whatever.

Talked to TimNick and such, and he told me just to come. He talked to Gary about it, and they decided to keep it on the downlow. What Mrs. hoover didn't know wouldn't hurt her.

So I didn't leave the booth the entire night I felt so bad.

But when I was on the phone with TimNick, I mentioned that I had a really bad day and he asked why. Suddenly my voice craked and I started crying just a little bit and told him I had got into a fight with Dan and it just had me really upset. I hung up.

I wander into the auditorium to get an unquestioning hug from Josh and sympathetic looks from him and Gary, so I assume they knew.

I did talk to Dan about it later, though. he he profusely apologized because I had left him a message telling him how upset I was, and how sorry I was and all of that sort.
Later he gave a little more explaination as to why he was so upset and I get it. It made a lot more sense and I can see why he reacted the way he did. I felt better having understood him more and all was well.

What else is new? I dunno. I think we're going back to class now, soon, anyway. So I should wrap up. Whooshles.

(This post was written last night)

Yup. So here I am chilling up in the booth. I have not blogged in quite awhile. I'm on pen and paper right now, but this will undoubtedly be transferred onto computer. Ugh. My pen is dying.

Okay. Now I am writing in blue pen. Cool.

So about me?Well as most of you know, I have picked up World of Warcraft again. And I'm really excited that Dan has, too. And it gives us something to talk about.
When I get home I pretty much "call" him on the computer and we chat via microphone. Sometime it feels like there isn't a lot to talk about, but somedays I have tons of stuff to say and somedays so does he. I deel better with him and person outside of school. He is just UBER cuddly. I love him so much <3Never felt anything quite like it before, and definitely in the good way. I generally feel pretty confident and secure. With the way he is, its like.. he unknowingly crushes some of my insecurities. Its nice.

Just this last week of having play has been sooo stressful o_O I almost think maybe I just don't handle lots of little stressful tasks very well. Or maybe its because I don't have any free time. If it were stress + some free time, I might be a lot better off.

So this week. Practice, play tonight and Friday, two shows Saturday. Band festival on Saturday. Buuut cast party after last show. And Dan is allowed to come. Funsauce. It's at Joey's of course. Then I'm sure Sunday will be much lounging around. Might pick up Dan's birthday present. It, among many other things, is on my to-do list.

Tried in my perdy prom dress to ensure it fits. Purple and strapless. Got it at Deb for pretty cheap. I was actually thinking about bleaching my hair and dyingit to match the dress XD Might be cool. But my hair is so long now and it would a long time for the bleach to grow out. And the purple dye will NOT show up unless I bleach my hair fershure. I dunno. I know my man totally loves long hair XD So I shoooouldn't cut it... meh. I dunno! But I think I look better with long hair. At least when I straighten it.
I'm not sure where to go for prom dinner. I'm going to get some friggin input from Dan even if it kills him. XD He just keeps saying Taco Bell! No Taco Bell Dinner for Senior Prom! I know he's not filled with oodles of monies, though. I wanna go somewhere nice, but yeah, not uber expensive. I was kinda thinking Chili's, mebbe? I dunno. We'll see what input I get.

So this weekend is cast party goodness. Next weekend is Dan's birthday. Well, on Thursday. I believe I am going out to dinner with him and his family. Also just today his dad asked if I wanted to go on some mini family trip thing. To the UP. Pictured something or other? Pictured rocks? I am not sure. But it'd be fun to go either way.I loves my Dan time.

Fryer has the picture TimNick and I are supposed to have on the new Techie shirts. Heh. Its okay. Therte is me. In a picture. To be on a short. Liek, pmg. I hate looking at pictures of mahself. I'm quite hideous at all times o_O

Buuut I did get my braces off on Monday. That was nice. And I feel kind of better about myself. Still a few more things to do and I'd be perfectly happy iwth myself... But maybe it doesn't matter. With the way Dan looks at me sometimes...

Also I got a new car last Monday. Its an Orange Chevy Cobalt. Its so nice. I enjoy it immensely.It handles SO nicely. And it gets about 25 miles to the gallon, which is nice seeing as I don't have a job. Yay! Although I really do have to get one this summer. What have I not yet ranted about?

Dunno! So I think I'm done? So the past few days have been mildly shizzy, but otherwise, Life is Good

So I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me tonight. Cannot sleep. Of course, but thats not new.

But I feel inexplicably depressed. I don't know why. Well, I guess maybe I can guess why.

I feel kind of... empty, maybe. Meaningless. Purposeless. Maybe its the thought of graduation. I GUESS I'm going to NMC.

Why? What do I hope to accomplish there? What job am I gonna get? Where am I gonna live? Will I afford a car? Will I still be dating Dan? And why am I doing all this? What grand finale does it lead up to?

Nothing. I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going. and at the moment, I feel slightly crazy.

I can't stand sleeping. I can't stand the absence of being... I don't like not being conscious, not doing anything. Not thinking, not moving, not... being. A sort of Somniaphobia, maybe? I don't know.

Maybe its just an in-the-moment thing. Maybe I'm having a bad night.

But as I said... I feel kinda empty. Maybe its also because I feel like I haven't been doing anything. I haven't been productive. And I can't bring myself to even make plans to do anything, its terrible. I really want to get out and do something with people... but I don't make plans because no one lives out in Kewadin anymore, and I don't like trying to beg people for a ride home. And sometimes when I want to do things, I have to do a lot of the planning. I have to plan my own ride, and sometimes I end up "Well let's do this" and then I have to do all kinda of background work for it. And then plus if I want Dan to come, I'm in charge of relaying all the information to him and finding both our rides and yadda yadda yadda.

Although I did suggest to Joey we should go out to lunch or something tomorrow. I would love just a quiet "sit down and talk for awhile" meal, especially with my Joedizzle. But it'll probably bust anyway.

I get to do stuff with Dan though, which is nice. Like Thursday and Friday we are spending at Mark's, and I think that will make me feel a lot better. I can stand sleeping if I have someone to sleep with.

Its kinda funny that I don't feel like I can tell him this. Not... yet anyway. But then I realize I'm kind of afraid of being vulnerable, I guess. I think its some sort of fear of driving him away by being vulnerable and open like that. I'll get to it.

I feel like dragging my lava lamp into the bathroom and taking a bath. NO NO, NOT WITH the lava lamp. But just sitting in the bathroom in the dark in a nice warm bath with the glow of my purple lava lamp. And its saying that that makes me think I might be slightly mad tonight.
I'd do that.. but I don't want Mom to yell at me for making too much noise in the bathroom or something.

Mmm and I already feel better having ranted. I heart you my trusty LJ

Dan is a very bad person because he LIED.

fucker still has hair.

o_O

Haven't posted in awhile. My presentation went well, thanks to all who helped. Interpreting poetry sucks... but luckily I was reading through it and was suddenly struck with a revelation. Yay.

So I been chilling. Things are good and murr at the same time for all random kinds of reasons. but then I suppose thats life, isn't it? Ups and downs. And besides, nothing terrible... so I'm not really that upset.

The Resort called me back (I put in an application) and for the job I want I'd have to work Saturdays and Sundays 9-5. Um, eff you. I am NOT killing my entire weekend. So I told them I would call back and get a job in the summer and schedule an interview and such.

I've been playing in Dan's Dad's D&D campaign. Its so much fun. He's going to run into epic levels. And he's so hardcore about it. The campaign he's running us through... he's been working on for about 20-30 years. So its intense. Plus he's hardcore about D&D (but not inthe "he's a freak" way, he is SO cool) so he typed up backstory for my character and everyone else's. Well, he only had mine done. And I thought it was really cool.

Harper's parents were Ranger's (as she is) to a really high up, and there was a war and yadda yadda and they went to this city and she ended up getting a beautiful albino frostsaber kitten but then the city was attacked and her parents were killed. And interesting, she is albino, too. I thought that was a cool touch. He asked me if everything was okay and whatnot and I told him I loved it. Plus I get an albino magebred frostsaber kitten. So it evens out.
However we don't have a rogue or a cleric in the party, and Dan's Dad is notorious for putting in deadly traps. Shizzit.

So I have no school today, cause Seniors get off since Juniors are testing. So I was sitting here playing Pokemon Diamond and watching The Land Before Time. To be fair, there is nothing else on TV. I'll probably go back to playing Hellgate: London. I enjoy it.

Le sigh.

Anyone who reads this entry, PLEASE offer your thoughts on this friggin' poem. I am supposed to explicate it for my AP Lit exam (and present it) and I can't find CRAP on it, nor make much sense of it. I mean I can grasp at what it means... but... yeah. Its not good. Help plzkthx?

I love you, because in my thousand and one nights of dreams,
I never once dreamed of you
I looked down paths that traveled from afar,
but it was never you I expected.
Suddenly I've felt you flying through my soul
in quick, lofty flight,
and how beautiful you seem way up there, far
from my always idiot heart!
Love me that way, flying over everything.
And, like the bird on its branches, land in my arms
only to rest,
then fly off again.
Be not like the romantic ones who, in love, set me on fire.
When you climb up my mansion,
enter so lightly, that as you enter
the dog of my heart will not bark.

Another blog starting ouyt on paper cause I am totally bored!

so how was my weekend? It was on and off. Had some good cuddle time with Dan.... >_> that I got in trouble with a Parental for, and it wasn't even one of ours. It's on the tip of my tongue to offer my defense, but in reality, I totally understand. I guess. I just don't like it. I really don't like going to sleep, you see. So its a nice relief to be sleeping with someone else. Its like a distraction, a load off my mind. happiness for a brief moment in time. I love my Dan cuddly time <3 and hopefully we will have bounds more when he is 18, which is in two months. Of course I don't suppose things can change much. Its more about having places to go on the weekend, as opposed to him getting permission to go. His parents usually don't mind much where he goes.
Yeah. His Mom won't let us sleep together at his house. I assume its the fear of us being bad-naughty? Kind of ironic, because at his house would be the LEAST likely place I would want to do anything bad-naughty. But le sigh, I get it.

Also played some Guitar Hero. Once I warmed up, I could rock medium fairly goodly. Dan had never played before but I got him on to a Guitar and he made it on to Medium. I was just sliiightly better than him since I had a little more experience under my belt.

things got confusing on Saturday. Dan, Ethan, and I were just kind of scared and confused and wanted to go home. So Ethan dropped Dan off... and I knew something bad was going to happen.

I was going to ride with April but it seemed more convenient to go with Ethan, especially since he agreed to take me home. But since getting in the car with him, I had a very bad feeling. I complained when he drifted and I was just tense in general. So he dropped Dan off and we began our journey home down Elk Lake Road. We were driving straight at the ER end of ELR... and we hit a patch of ice. The car turned one way and then the other, but Ethan managed to counter it pretty well. Ultimately we did a 180 and ended up only slightly off the road in the other lane. We just sat there for a moment, trembling... looked at each other... and immediately started chatting about our new epic tale of near-death. He said something- I don't remember exactly what- and it normally would have only been moderately funny. But in a time such as this, we desperately needed some comic relief XD So we laughed for a good minute. Just flat our hysterical laughter.

I called Dan afterwards at the Vm and was ranting and raving and talking excitedly... but I started a bit too loudly, and with some kind of yelling. His phone cut out. After the yelling, before the talking. And I didn't realize it cut out and neither did my phone, until about 40 seconds in. I thought he hung up, at first. But then I came home and had messages on my computer, one swearing about his phone and the other saying something to the effect of "Damnit, you'd better be okay." A little shaken, but fine. I aplogized that he thought I was in peril and felt bad about scaring him... but all was well. I was absolutely touched by his concern <3

Yesterday I played Diablo with him and his parents all day. He was a sorceress, his mom a barbarian, his dad a druid, and I was a pally (paladin, for those not in the know.) I hate pallys but it was a good experience. Besides, I had a lot of extra pally gear from other chars.

Snowcoming on Saturday. I feel kind of like going but I don't feel like going through the trouble of telling Dan and harassing him into going. He doesn't have money, and I am quite sure he doesn't really care anyway o_O I could consider going alone, but I know I would get uber depressed o_O *pout* although I wanna wear a pretty dress...

I leave for the New York Trip next Thursday, Valentine';s Day. I wanna see if maybe Dan wants to hang out beforehand, maybe at Chef Chuck's or somewhere. I don't want uber fancy, I just feel like sitting around and talking for awhile ^_^ <3

I was thinking about Sam the other day. Well, really I think about him everyday. But last Thursday, I was art work vacuuming and I had to stop and sit and cry for a little bit. I was thinking about what it would be like to just see him one last time, so I could say a proper goodbye. get one of those big Sam hugs. Thank him for helping Dan and I get together. I know Dan still things of him, and feels like he owes him a lot for that. What hurts most if I can still vividly picture Sam, too. I can hear his voice. I'd give anything just to see him one last time....
yeah.

So apparently Mark is doing a Starcraft party on Friday. YAY SOMEWHERE TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH DAN~! That will be fun. I think I will bring my Pc, but not necessarily to play SC. I might play some other random games with Fryer.

Aaaaand I am burned out on typing now. WHEEEE!

I... I am pretty happy right now, I suppose. Well. Depends.

Of course there's always the small things that give you a bad day o_O And then theres the dread of "oh shit, now what am I doing about college?" And also the fact I have no money and I need to get a real job fairly soon or I am going to DIE.

But relationship-wise... I am doing awesomely. To be honest, I'm afraid to get too optimistic. I'm mean look at me, I've been in two great relationships already that I'm sure were exactly what I wanted and would be perfect forever. Yeah. Obviously worked o_O
But then I suppose thats the thing about being happy in a relationship. You're optimistic whether you want to be or not. Its hard to put a label on the time.. its a bit under three months, and of course, it feels like much longer.

Of course I believe part of that is because when we started dating, I had my jaw wired still, and now I have it off. That feels like FOREVER ago. FOREVER.

But yeah. I had like the most romantic night ever on New Year's... and it ended up being mostly in Joey's closet o_O THANK YOU JOEY, AND I HEART YOUR CLOSET! We went in there to crash about 1 o'clock or so, because he was dead tired man. So we curled up in the pile of blankets and made ourselves as cozy as we could... and I dunno. We didn't fall asleep until about 5-6 in the morning o_O We ended up talking a lot. I don't even remember what all he said, but... I dunno. For being very inexperienced with the dating scene and just... a lot of that... he said some pretty adorable things.

So right now I am quite content, and I'm trying not to think too hard about the future and just take it as it comes.

Got to see Sweeney Todd one of these past nights! My internal clocked is effed up right now o_O But it was a pretty good movie! I was really emo that Dan couldn't come ._. he had promised to take me since before we started dating and it ended up he couldn't go. Although that night he sent me a message and an email telling me he as really sorry he couldn't go and we'd do something to make up for it.

He's a sweetie pie.

Sweeney Todd was totally a great movie. I half want to see it again... and half to not o_O If you've seen it, then you know what I mean.
I'll totally end up seeing it again XD

I had to buy tickets for the underage peeps which I don't like doing, mostly because I don't like keeping track of who gives me what and change and all that. And I ended up spending about two extra dollars, which isn't a HUGE deal, but I am pretty tight on cash. Everyone though tickets were 7, but they were like 8.50 or something. So Joi got shortchanged, too. She gave me a twenty and I could only give her a ten back. Oh well. This time.

Might go to John's on Friday. Gotta get me something fun to do. And stuff.

I need to force myself to go sleepy. Whoosh.

Current Music: Less Talk, More Rokk -Freezepop

So I'm chilling around at JOey's house right now in the midst of his New Year's party. Considering he isn't fond of calling people up and inviting them, there is quite the turnout. Of course the circle of people he invited all invited other people... you know our chain of peeps.

I was at Mark's house for a D&D partyness thing last night. Dan ran his evil campaign, which is shaping up to be pretty sweet. Yay for killing innocent civilians! Yaya!

Apparently April AND Jamie play WoW now... they were talking about that earlier. SO jealous right now. But T_T I have bad monies. I have to pay for New York trip and such, of course, then once summer comes back around I have to pay for my gas, and I need to save for college. Gotta find myself a real job. I'm considering working cherries this summer. I know there is pretty decent money in that, even though the hours aren't that amazing. 12 hours? Thats not really my style o_O But I'll suck it up and do it for the money. It'd be especially nice if I could work the same shift and thing as Jamie or at least someone I somewhat know... that'd be nice. so nice.

AME SAYS HI!!!!!!! SHE LOVES ME FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND SEX.

CHRIST. Dan suck snuck up behind me and raped me in the sides with his fingers. I swear... I thought it was Joey. His fingers felt bigger... JOey had thicker fingers in Dan, but they dug in Dan-style. SO I yelled something about ending Joey and turn around into Dan's face XD

DAN STOP READING THIS

He's being a meanie head XD Go time!

So I've been mildly wigging out. Panicky and flittery... but not normally. Only when I'm trying to sleep, or if I let my mind wander and then Istart thinking and... I dunno. I reach a zone where I panic for a little bit and it takes a few minutes to cool myself down. ITs hard to explain, nor do I really care to.
But its weird that its happening to me now. Its not that strange in GENERAL, its just weird its happening when I'm... not depressed. I've generally been in a pleasant mood. Maybe its because I have less to do lately... and I end up sitting around at home a lot. Maybe all the bad happenings lately are taking a toll I don't realize. Maybe its the fact that a couple people next to me have been in very bad shape lately... in fact I really got scared for one person and I pretty much started crying I was afraid. I think things are better now... perhaps not amazing, but better than they were.

And ended up having a conversation with Joey and Dan (respectively) about military and their futures... sure, I have come to accept Joey and his decisions... I still don't like it! But what he plans to do... it does seem really right for him, and I think it would... I dunno. I think he'd really like it. It's him.
And I brought it up to Dan and he says he most likely will go into the military at some point. I should have expected that, but it still caught me as a surprise o_O I mean come on, his family has a strong military background... I should have figured! Oh well. But yeah. I did the typical female "NO DON'T DO IT, YOU'LL DIE~!" while he explained why that wasn't true XD

Nothing I have to worry about now though, I suppose. I have to worry about my own self right now... *kicks self* Must apply to NMC! Maybe i'll do that next.

Cast party was recently. That was lots of funness. Rolling around. I kinda just hung out with Dan, I guess. I mean I didn't really feel like Halo and people were just kind of floating and talking. I played some DDR... sat around and talked... oh, poker was fun. I won the first hand like... amazingly. But then we had to redistribute chips and I started losing. Murr. Oh well.

I dunno. Other stuff. There was another thing that was contributing to the emoness in the back of my head welling up, and thats the very bad vibes I get from a certain someone. I feel like... a huge brick of guilt when I really don't think I should have that anymore, but I can't help it. I thought things were okay... apparently I was mistaken.

Hanging out at Dan's this weekend, because he made plans last weekend but they fell through because last weekend was so busy, so he rescheduled. I get to spend the night at his house... which is nice fun.
His Mom is apparently crazy about me! XD At least thats the way he makes it sound. She likes me and stuff... she invited me (through Dan) to spend the night on the 22nd! Cause on the 23rd we're driving down to somewhere (Manton?) to do Christmas stuff with her side of the family and they invited me. She told him to tell me I should spend the night because it would be more convenient that way. Fer shure, cool Danny-Mommy!

Anyway, must work on NMC app. Whoosh

Current Music: Your Racist Friend -They Might Be Giants

So I feel as though I should post. It has been awhile. I don't even remember what has happened...

So the evil snow has started, so I can't drive anymore -_- great. I wanted to go see Dan tomorrow and hang with him at his house because its a half day... but I can't, because Mom won't come get me if the weather is bad and theoretically it is supposed to storm tonight. There's a chance it won't but... eh. I tend to be a pessimist.

Friday I am going over to John's for some good time fun, but Dan won't be able to make that. he has a good reason, though, they are celebrating his Dad's birthday. And then next weekend he has more birthday stiff he is doing, so he'll be incapacitated then... makes me sad ._. I won't be able to see him!

Its nice to see him at school... but I feel like our relationship flows better outside of school. I dunno. I still feel like its a little.. not UNSTABLE... but like there's a few things within it I haven't quite gained my footing on? Nothing like.... uberly major yet, anyway. Cause otherwise things have been going quite nicely, I'd say.

First hour exam today. I think I did alright. RE exam tomorrow which is a blow off. Band... which isn't anything except turning in my uniform. Crap, I need to find my stupid hat thing... wtf are you!!

AP Lit is gonna be ROUGH. I need to memorize Hamlet like woah. I'll workon that tomorrow if I don't go to Dan's... and even if I do, but then less. Must... cram... x__X

And yeah. Guess I don't know what all else.

A couple days this week I was like... not wigging out but... very bad on the inside. Very negative feelings, very emo, very... just bad. I don't even really know why, which is distressing to me, because I know myself pretty well, and normally I know why something upsets me. This was just so inexplicable. It seems to have dissipated, however... of course like, just knowing I won't be able to see Dan for awhile (you know, in real quality time) has me kinda down. Eh. I dunno.

I should go to bed now. I was up late doing a project I totally didn't feel like working on most of the time I had it o_O But it is done now! And it is... halfway decent. It'll do!!

Sleep.

So I'm sitting here in John Hosner's apartment.

Thursday I was debating with Ame what we should do on Friday, because we wanted to go and do something fun. Hopefully involving movies. We had the idea of going to Mark's at first, but no one could get a hold of him, and I don't think he'd like it if we just kind of randomly showed up. Plus I think he's sick, anyway.

But yeah! So we ended up at John's! I don't know him very well... but its all good. Friday went by fairly quickly and then I headed downtown with Dan. Went to Chang's and split some crab ragoons with him, cause I loves me those things. Then wandered to Gilroy's and Subway to hang, and then down to Chef Charles to play with Ame who was working. Talked to here, and in CC we found April and Austin.

Sat around with them for a little and then April decided she wanted to do somethi- AME SAYS HI!!!- something and so we headed out to TC so she could get a dress for the dance Saturday. Wandered around, funfunfun... the men kind of wandered off, of course, so as not to be stuck with us girls looking at girly. April ended up getting a pretty blue one, while I just looked longingly and didn't buy anything. But thats okay, cause I don't wear dresses that often, and I already have one I haven't even worn. Okay, well wore once for like, half a dance. Because I was only there for half the dance, not because I got naked or anything. Or did I...

We came back, met up with Ame at her apartment. Tromped over to John's. Its so long ago its getting hard to remember. I disappeared in the midst of this LJ post, and am now finishing typing it on Monday. There was some Guitar Hero action going on. Sweet.

I dunno. I blank out on what happened o_O We watched Tenacious D and stuff... up late... yeah I dunno. I took the empty spare bedroom with Dan. by empty I mean pretty much bare... except for weights and a bicycle. But yeah. So threw blankets out on the floor and stuff and it was good.

Of course at some point during the night I got a text from Joey telling me Anne was arrested... yeah. I'm sure most of you already know this, so I don't bother relaying the whole story. But if anyone does NOT know, feel free to ask and I will explain.
Last Tuesday Dan had alluded to wanting to tell me something, and it having something to do with something that Sam had asked him to do, and it was bugging him... he didn't then, and told me he'd tell me later, and he finally brought it up on Friday. Sam had told him to take care of me... and I thought that was sweet of both of them. And... I dunno. Its more of a "you had to be there to hear how cute it was" kind of thing.

I think I'm having a harder time coming to realization with Sam than I thought. Or am I? I don't even know. I understand, I comprehend... but sometimes for a split second I just forget. And then in the next instant when I remember, I get the really bad feeling again.
It shouldn't have happened. It's not fair.

Woke up and had cold pizza for brekkie on Saturday. Sat around, mostly. Went to work. Sat around. Got ready for dance! Sat around.
Went out to Town Club for dinner. Mmmm good food. I love the yummy chicken nacho plate... then we dinked around with Ty for a little bit, then went to the dance.

The music at the dance sucked ASSBALLS. Although the highlights include dancing to What Is Love and Sandstorm. And Macarena was pretty good, too. Beyond that... not much. Made Dan dance. Which really he DIDN'T... but that was okay! As a female, the male doesn't need to be dancing in order for us to dance with them o_O
We left a bit before the end to head back to John's. There was a cake for April that Ame made during the day. I would have stayed out and socialized longer, but I thought I was going to die I was so tired. So I pretty much passed out in the spare room not long after cake.
Dan is a blanket and a pillow whore o_O So I need to start bringing my own blanket and pillow! He means well, though.

Woke up at 7 to take Dan home so he could be there by 8, which was when he needed to be... but he whined so we went back to sleep, woke up, tried to go back to sleep until he pestered me enough into leaving. John was up as we were leaving and everyone else was napping on the floor. Came home after taking Dan home and immediately slept for a few hours.

I acquired a sore throat sometime that day. And right now, 8:31 on Monday, it still hurts. But less so. I decided to take a day off so I could 1) Finish homework I didn't h ave time to do this weekend, 2) Soothe my sore throat, and 3) Play Diablo.
Really three takes priority over number two. Well. Okay, they're tied.

Jamie! I wanted to call you back last night by my throat got worse and it would have been all raspy and mostly filled with my pained whimpering. And Dan was there when I was listening to your voice mail, and he was confused when I burst our laughing XD
No no, I didn't not answer because I was sexing him up, we were at the dance. At least I 'm fairly sure you called while we were at the dance... I dunno. But its all good! Hopefully you'll be on tonight or I'll eventually call you when my throat is on normal condition... uhn tiss, baby! <3

It's amazing how things can be going so well, and yet so terribly wrong at the same time.

I these outside factors keep.. breaking in. The other night, with Sam and all.. that was a shock. I'm still in shock. Dan asked me Thursday evening how I went all day without just... breaking down or anything. How I managed to hang on. Which really the only time I got teary was during Gallager's speech to the school.
Funeral is on Tuesday all 11 o'clock... because it was agreed upon Sam would have wanted people to get out of school for his funeral. They are oh so right.
That is probably where I will break down again. I really feel like I need a good sobbing cry, sometimes you just do, but one just... doesn't seem to be coming to me. I need that kind of release, I think.

I was talking to Dan on Thursday and we realized how much we owed Sam. He did kinda hook us up. I think it was inevitable that we probably would have gotten together eventually, but he was a major catalyst.

And call me crazy, but I can almost feel like I can reach out to Sam. Or like, easily access his memory. Dan and I both kinda have been. I dunno, we'll do something stupid and say "Sam is laughing at us right now." Or Mark was being his usually self and we'd say to him "Yeah, Sam just called you a rule-nazi." I think it's just a way of dealing with things.

This affects me more than Coley did, and that was striking really really close to home. Hell it hit home and now I need a new roof. And just as I was getting that repaired, another lightning bolt hits taking out the roof and now the elect4ricity. Great.
I can still picture him... and its the coat I think of. And how he towered head and shoulders above everyone else. I think of his lead pipe, and his magical dice...

I almost feel like I could have done something. If I had tried harder, made more of an effort to talk to him... I don't know. I know thats a normal response, guilt. Maybe if at the last Star Wars game I had given him an extra hug? Maybe if I told him I cared? Maybe I should have called him once in awhile. But no.
His house is filled with a lot of memories for me, and I know a lot of other people. And now memories are trickling in... he's the reason I bought Oblivion. I would spend the night with Matt and in the morning I'd wake up before him, and I'd pop over into Sam's room and play Oblivion for awhile, cause he let me play on his Xbox.

Yeah. I'll probably post some more memories as I think of them... or maybe just ponder over them myself.
For now I think I want to go on to more on the good. Or at least...less bad.

Thursday of course was terrible. But we were all there for each other in the library. I didn't bother going to any classes. I didn't want to sit around in a room full of people who... just didn't get it. Weren't my group of people.
We were all there for each other and the day passed by.

I kinda pestered Mark into doing something and so he let Dan and I come over after Chamber Choir. We popped in Star Wars and watched the original three eppies... but Mark fell asleep during the beginning of the 6th Eppie (third original) and I just kind of stopped paying attention.
Mark hadn't intended for us to spend the night really, but it just kinda happened o_O Mark's floor is pretty... not comfy. But it was the second best thing I slept on this weekend.
I left for my house at 6 so I had time to take a shower and stuff before going in to school.

Friday went by normally, I suppose. But Joey asked me during band if I had anything planned after school, no of course I didn't. He said he was gonna have peeps at his house, so I was all in for that.

So after school I came home for a bit to tkae care of stuff, then left for Joey's, picking up Dan on the way.
Dan is such a sweetie. He gave me frickin' twenty dollars for gas. HIS HOUSE IS ON THE WAY! But whatever. I told him not to, but he insisted. Besides I did end up giving him an extra ride home, anyway. But I don't really need payment from him, and if I did, really only five would suffice! But he's a big sweetie.
Dan and I made it to Joey's before Joey even did. So Dan and I chilled on the couch o_O Jonny was there. Lakerz showed up. Joey soon followed.

Mostly Haloness ensued. Oh joy. But whatever. For a long time there was just computer, Halo, and sitting around and chatting. A long time of that. We inserted some DDR after that, which was good stuff. And there was foodstuffs! Gotta love foodstuffs.
Watched Tenacious D. by this time it was getting really late and I was starting to get way out of it. I dozed on and off throughout the movie on one of the couches with Dan. He didn't really sleep during the movie.

Eventually Travis roused me to sing the final song with him, which that was sweet. He was JB, I was KG, and Alex was the Devil. Sweetness.
There was some more randing dinking around followed by wrestling. Joey and Brian had a really good match going on and ended up coming to a draw when they both decided to put it off. I think Brian is a little more squirrelly and experienced compared to Joey, but Joey is still agile and really strong.

I don't remember what else happened before I decided it was sleepy time. I curled back up on the couch with Dan and slept, but I was so pissed off o_O and I kept waking up. Eventually I woke up and no one was using the light and I went and turned it off. Because it made me ANGRY.
Apparently I took some of it out on Dan XD I think I was just kind of pissy at him, which I feel a LITTLE bad about. I think at one point he said something I did not agree with and got a little miffed. And I remember it was so hot on that couch... I can't sleep if I don't have a blanket wrapped around me in SOME fashion. So I was curled up with/in Dan's coat snuggled into Dan o na leather couch in a hot room. I was sweating and miserable. And my left ear hurts if I lay on that side for too long and I kept waking up and kind of whimpering in pain and trying to roll over on this narrow couch and not fall off and crush Joey and also be skillful so that I don't wake up Dan, and here I am coated and sweat and whimpering o_O And PERPETUALLY PISSED OFF! So next time I'll just take off and sleep in Joey's room XD screw Dan, screw Joey, I want a bed. In a nice cool room under warm, warm blankets. Yeaaaah... thats nice...

Next day rolled around. Dropped Dan off at home, Brandy in town. I came home and did some stuff and then Brandy came with me to the Amvets where we did some volunteer work for Glori who was organizing the benefit dinner for the families of the people in the crash. It started off kind of slow, but eventually Brandy and I were making.. DROGOWSKI SALAD!

Dan had perfect timing. Brandy and I were just about to take off top speed down to BC Pizza to pick up some breadsticks for the benefit and he was there looking all confused and I'll telling at him "GET IN THE CAR, WE HAVE TO GO! GO GO GO!" and probably something about taking off at DROGOWSKI SPEED and getting DROGOWSKI BREADSTICKS!

So we pranced around the back of BC for awhile until we had the package and took off back.
and this time Brandy and I might as well have been coked up on DROGOWSKI CRACK!
Dan's Mommy tipped me off. She told me to go check in my bag, Dan left something for me in there... to which Dan was a little miffed she spoiled the surprise XD So Brandy and I giggled out to the car and I sifted through my bag and found a cute bracelet that even had my birthstone. So now I have something pretty to wear! It perhaps won't be as permanant as my JoeyRing, but thats merely because it slides around and I wouldn't want it to fall off. I would be sad! :(
I told him how DROGOWSKI CUTE it was.
People wandered in and out while I managed Salad and Deserts, making sure the tables were full of them, and sometimes enlisting in the help of Dan when it wasn't.
He was terribly sweet, helping without question pretty much.

We went to Kallen's for a bonfire after the dinner. It was alright. Chilling around. had some alone-with-Dan time which is nice. He lives inconveniently out of the way, so I milk all of the weekend time I can get.
We went into the house as they were about to pop in Rent. We got settled in on the couch and all was well. We both fell asleep within like, the first two songs XD I would have liked to watch Rent, but not when I was that tired. I remember I woke up at some point and moved my hands around.. felt something furry... and looked down to see Ame's kitty laying on me. He was a cutie! So I pet him for a little bit and then fell back asleep.

We woke up at the end of the movie or sometime a bit after and resituating ourselves to be laying on half of the couch. It was actually fairly cozy. I woke up maybe once or twice and roll over and then just fell right back asleep. Dan and I kinda either woke up at the same time, or I woke up as a result of him having stirred around for awhile. Laid around for awhile and them TimNick came to and we started laying with the kitten who woke up Ame and then everyone gradually started bustling about.

Mostly lots of sitting and chilling around, ate some cereal. I sat around on the couch for awhile with Dan before deciding I was still way too tired so I curled up on the floor for a nap. I was really hazy on this part. Apparently Alex moved to the floor as did Dan cause I vaguely remember him playing with my hair, I think? I dozed off and woke up and he pulled me up onto his chest where I fell asleep again. Next time I woke up we had Ame's kitten snuggled in between us. AWW KITTEN IS IRRESISTIBLY CUTE! He is... DROGOWSKI CUTE! Anyway Dan decided he should probably be getting home soon...
so I took Brandy home, him home, Ame and I stopped at Mark's to visit him and Brian, took Ame home, then went home myself. I ate some food, talked to Dan when he got on, played a little Diablo, and then proceeded to take a four hour nap. Whoops. So now my sleeping is pretty much shot tonight.

So I had an uber fun weekend, I guess, in spite of all the tragedy. It's been there lingering at the back of my mind though, all thats happened is. I haven't forgotten. Besides like I said, it'll be Tuesday when it all hits me...
Travis called Dan and asked him to be a pallbearer, which gave Dan some respect for Travis. I'm glad Dan will be there so I've got someone to cling to... I didn't at Coley's. I managed, though.

In store for this week? Well I don't know. Saturday is the dance, though, and Dan was pretty agreeable about going. Ame and Brian are going, and April and Austin might go, too. the more the merrier. Maybe we can all get together and do something before/after.

And I dunno. I think thats it.

With where I'm at.. I'm fairly happy. I mean things could be better. College is really the only thing I'm stressing over, but even so, I'm not uber-stressing yet or anything. I've put some thought in it and come to find I am quite content with Dan.
And frankly I'm just glad I'm in a better place or I'd be a complete and utter wreck right now, probably.

I should try to sleep. It feels like I've been blogging for like, an hour... which I guess is possible o_O I dunno. Whoosh-sleep!

(Translation: I'm gonna go play Diablo for a half hour, dink around for another half hour, then see if sleep comes!)

Current Music: Surrender -Cheap Trick

So there has been so much going on lately I doubt I can even begin to recount it all.

I went to Coley's funeral. I wish I had a senior picture of here, but I never got one. All of her pictures were so beautiful... she was honestly one of the prettiest girls I knew and I always thought that about her.
I was inching along and I just kinda finally lost it... and surprisingly, the first one to my aid was TimNick. He must have been busy that night, because by the end of it all, his red shirt was tear-stained. He's a good guy.
The service and everything was really nice, and I thought Gary did a great job.

I went to Andy's viewing, too, but didn't stick around for too long.

The one thing I didn't like about either funeral is just... the way they look. It was Coley and it was Andy.. but really it just wasn't anymore. They looked fake, almost, and I think that was the scariest thing to me. But I was glad to have gone.

I'm hoping Bloody October is now behind us and things will start to perk up.

So I gave Dan some clothes for Halloween and made him dress up like a girl. With my pink Girl Power tanktop and a pair of tight jeans, nice makeup, and Aaron's bra from last year... he looked pretty good. It wasn't noticeable unless you realize "Hey... thats a DUDE."
By the end of the night he was way to into his costume. Too into it. As in "STOP MAKING ME FEEL YOUR BOOBS!" into it. It was upsetting after awhile.

My wires are off and I have two rubber bands in place, which will be gone soon. Technically I'm not REALLY supposed to eat solid foods... but I've been eating anything I can fit through as far open as my jaws will go. So it's all good.

School is progressing. I need to raise my Anatomy grade. Its like a B-. Yeah I know! But I... I dunno, don't like the ways Muzz runs things all time. But she is a totally awesome teacher! But still. I did have a 79 in that class... until we had to test on Reproduction! Whoohoo! Reproduction MASTER!

Whoosh

I am so hardcore procrastinating homework right now. So epically hardcore.

I have about two and a half classes to do homework for. although done with RE, then I have some AP Lit and then some hardcore Spanish. I'll probably do my hardcore Spanish in the morning.

had Star Wars stuff almost all day. And then hung around at Dan's for like an extra hour.

Ahhh Dan. Still trying to evaluate this relationship, because its ever so... tricky o_O I dunno. I can't... decide on... I dunno. Its hard to put it in words. How well its clicking?

I mean obviously I do like him, definitely. I guess its evaluating how well thats working out. Physically its quite nice, and I mean that far from any bad naughty way. One of us is usually being doted on by the other. Whether its him snapping his fingers and holding out his hand for mine XD In an almost demanding way, so he can play with my fingers. Or if its him making little pouty noises and wiggling his feet in my lap when I stop playing with them. and other stuff. Like oh man, at the band thing he was so cute.

I sat in a chair and he just stood behind me, arms around me and stuff... it was cyoot.

But I dunno o_O Speaking seems to be his downfall. He's not very good at verbal flirting XD thats for sure. And... he just says stupid things sometimes. And he jokes around with these stupid things, and I KNOW he's kidding... but I can see how after awhile it will become taxing.

Of course, I realize, this is his first relationship. And I can already tell he has changed since he started liking me, I think, because he... I dunno. Wants to fit more to what I like? Or doesn't want to treat me quite the same as he does everyone else? I dunno. Its almost like he's... changing for me. I mean he'll say something about biting back a mean comment or refraining from hitting someone XD I call myself his patch. Although let me say I am in no way actively TRYING to change him. I dun want him to act like someone he's not or anything!

But yeah, as far as funny little quirkiness goes, I'm gonna give it time. I mean really at the moment it is not a huge deal. I'm keeping an eye on it, though. Cause I like this relationship! So if something becomes a problem, I'll address it. Right now I'm just letting the "new relationship" kinks sort themselves out.

having my jaw wired shut hinders me. I feel like... there's just more I could be doing to connect. And I'd feel less grotesque o_O Although he has a positive attitude towards it, and that makes me feel better.

He seems really quite taken to me. He was talking to Sam on our way downstairs in his house to play more SW. Saying stuff about I was kinda geeky (YUCK IT UP, *COURTADE!) and how female nerds were totally rare, and then he said something about considering himself lucky. I thought that was really cute.
(*Courtade in this case = Joey)

I get the impression I make him happy. I mean its hard to tell, because he's not a "let's talk about emotions" kind of guy. But hey, give that some time. I'll work him!
But he just... I dunno. It just kinda feels like I make him really happy and based on some things Sam has said... I feel good.

*strokes chin* And upon leaving last night and sometime yesterday he left with a "I <3 U" which was quite interesting. "u" of course, is not typically how he spells "you." So I take it basically he's using it as a affectionate goodbye without trying to put really heavy meaning behind it, I think. Cute nonetheless.

yeah. I just wandered away from writing this for like, twenty minutes.

Anyway we have plans already for 12/23 o_O Sweet.
I'll start with the set up. he had a family ruin on Saturday, and apparently I was talk at their dinner table XD Holy shiz, I know! "they just sat and listened as my mother kept going on about you, ;)" he said when I tried to ask him about it. So I take it she likes me?

We get along fairly well. We both beat up Dan XD

And then he asked me what I was doing on the 23rd, and I said I had nothing planned, so he invited me to go with him to a dinner his Mom's side of the family has. Its a potluck thingie. Its down in Manton. I totally agreed. It sounds like fun.
And also I claimed him for the 24th if my family does the same thing as last year. Long story don't feel like explaining o_O But JOEYDIZZLE! If my peeps do the same thing they did on Christmas Eve as last year, I'm totally inviting you, if you want to come. You is mah family!

So anyway, it sounds like fun.
And then I talked to him tonight after I got back from SW and he said that "we were just talking about you" o_o I assume he meant he and his mother. I like her, but I still have that... nervous thing. The "oh mah gawd its the boyfriend's mother!" thing. I dunno. She seems cool though.

And hopefully we'll be able to spend the night together on Thursday at Mark's house, which'll be nice bonding time.

Aaaand I need to get back to homework now, alas. TTFN

Current Music: Ladies and Gentlemen -Saliva